Me!Writing!Here!

Im a very bad writer. Forget about general writing i cant even sketch songs for my band. But i thought of doing this when last night i found an emptiness in my heart. Someone very close has drifted away in the past few months and has left a gaping hole in my conciousness. Maybe keying down the status of my head is better than just letting it float out of my head into empty spaces. I know this may sound like a cliche love story but thats something this is JUST NOT. Not at all. I speak to a higher conciousness every night, infact most of the time, especially when i think there's some trouble brewing. thats me. Cant help it. I have become very slack an unorderly in my behaviour. Maybe a little selfish too. But; i used to speak to her too and she was my first level of a reality check, before i could move on to the higher being. It was nice. I was complacently but slowly getting into this new mould of existence. But no more. Now i pray FOR her every night. Not for her to come back but for her to be happy wherever she is. She must be helping someone else discover themselves.